This page is dedicated to all of those who have aided me in my path to finding myself..... since I have found "me", my life has been very different. I no longer grieve for the loss of my fallen family members, or those removed from my life by fate.... because I now know, that if you still tink back on them every once and a while, then they are not truely forgoten.

When oe talks of salvation, it usually means that your "soul" was saved... in a manner of speaking, mine was. I have managed to cut the non-essential things out of my life..... and i feel much better, after doing so, and I suggest it to all who read this, you will feel so much more fufilled after you shed a few unnecesary things from your life. To make it easy, start small, the first thing I cut was caffine... it is like a poision, but like anything, if you know you can, then you will. After that, I stopped spending money on ridiculous things.... does a person honestly need every CD he sees? That was my vice, also choclate.... I will stop buying itagain, as soon as my friends in band stop sellig it!! lol- For some reason, every band member hits me up for money everytime they sell candy.....

Another factor in my salvation, is I realized how much being a "goth" means in my life. I have been teased in classes for admitting it, but then when I showed them, that I was not a "satanic Mailyn Manson fan", then they backed off. If you show a kid the truth, and give them proof of it, then they usually are cool about it... that's what makes the "gen xer's" better then the others, we may have a bunch of bad apples (the Columbine six), but if you throw the rotten apples away, then the bussel is still good.